They Tried to Sell Me Salvation

A Four-Part Fiction

There I was in a Dollar Tree, not even trying to be cute. In fact, I was trying to figure out if I could grab lunch for less than two dollars and get back to my desk before my boss noticed I was gone for my 15-minute break.

Yet, he stopped me at the aisle’s end-cap. A whiff of fragrance hit my nose and I couldn’t tell if it was him or if a Lavender Fabuloso bottle leaked open somewhere.

This man was clearly from out of town. His unbuttoned white and gold Hawaiian shirt hung open, like this wasn’t mid-March in the Midwest and could blizzard or blaze in the blink of an eye.

I guess he had less worries at the time. 

What he was worried about at the moment was blocking my path.

“Hey,” it was hard to tell his age. He dressed like a Miami lover-boy, but there was something in his eyes. Something that read, he’s used to living.

I pause, unusually bemused by the moment,

“What’s up”

“How much?” 

Oh, just an empty offer.

I roll my eyes and throw out a ridiculous hurdle. He asks for my phone number.

Maybe it was the flicker of the dying fluorescent light, the fog of Fabuloso or that he seemed so willing so that I took him up on the offer and gave him phone number.

Box of oatmeal, peanut butter, tea.

Should hold me over for a few breakfasts in the cubicle.

Me and the dollar tree worker filled the air with enjoyable silence, just the beeps of efficiency slicing every second or so. Her hands manicured and bejeweled to a tee. The designs resembled a scene from Moana, but one hand outlined the burning volcano goddess and the other the joyful green one.

“Nice nails”.  I shared near the end of exchange.

She smiled, “Thank you darling, Receipt?”

“No thanks,” I grabbed the bag and breezed to the door, “Have a good one”

The bell jingling, like a prophecy on clearance, behind me.

6 PM 

When I finally hit the safety of homebase, his text startled me.

[Random Number] Were you still interested?

Since I hadn’t touched my back-up number in years, I knew exactly who it would be. 

[Me] And who could this be? 

[Random Number] King Midas baby. 

I laughed out loud. He might actually get a date for that one. 

[Me] : Ha! Careful what you manifest, Midas.
[Random Number] : You say that it’s not already happening.

I stared at the screen until the typing dots disappeared.

Maybe the universe really did keep receipts.

He offered to manifest a flight and had a date, time, and location in mind…his family was throwing a weekend jubilee near Niagara Falls. 

[King Midas]: I’d love for the chance to show you a good time. 

This guy seemed legit, but come on, flirtation could only get a man so far. 

[Me] Well what’s your real name then? 

[King Midas] Sage Love. Google me.

[Me] Maybe I will 😏

I tossed the phone aside and got back to the real carnival, cooking from the cupboards. Whether it was love or business. I could be the maiden and the maverick.

At work the next day, I did look him up.

Sage Love, a New York State heir tied to the oil magnates of the early industrial age. 

His Linkedin Read: Sage Love, 29, venture-capital mystic, founder of The Garden Collective.

I clicked through headlines and family trees. Sage Love—the kind of name you’d think came from a self-help guru, not a trust fund. His grandfather patented an industrial dye that once colored half the uniforms in World War II. His father “pivoted” to pharmaceuticals when peace broke out. Their estate funded one of those “legacy fellowships” for the humanities—how poetic.

It had been a while since I had dinner with destiny. I decided to let my thoughts dwell on the decision, real world work called after all.  

It was 2pm, I could tell because that’s when the sun could directly beam into the iris of my eyes.

A notification. 

$500 cash app deposit to my phone number from him, with a note (You still coming?)

I ♥️ it.

At least he had integrity, always a green flag to me. 

After 15 minutes, he follows up:

  • [King Midas] Well mademoiselle?
  • [Me] Hmm…how could I impose your honor? 😘

Curiosity, cash, and cosmic boredom are a dangerous cocktail.

The invitation came with a hotel confirmation and a QR code shaped like a heart.

Another notification.

Cashapp: $500.
Note: “For your trouble—or your outfit.”

I stared at the notification like it was a miracle or a minor miracle scam.

Either way, I screenshotted it. Every goddess deserves a stipend.

A follow up text read:

The Love Ball – a night of glamour, grace, and green energy.

It felt like a startup pitch deck disguised as a masquerade.

By Friday afternoon, the calendar reminder hit like divine comedy

“ The Love Ball – Formal Attire.”

Apparently, Sage’s family hosted it every spring—a benefit for environmental restoration projects, complete with champagne flutes, silent auctions, and the occasional senator pretending to compost.

I told myself it was networking.

Building social connections.

A chance to see what old money did with with a new generation. 

He’d already handled everything—flight, hotel, itinerary—like a man who believed logistics were love languages. At the airport, I found I had a window seat, again the sun beamed directly in my face, but this time it felt, like maybe fool’s gold could still matter.

I laughed to myself: manifestation really does have range.

There I was, in the limo headed to his estate. Niagara Falls, the world’s hydroelectric hooker of early industrial extraction by design. Where companies pumped and dumped by-products into canals and abandoned quarries. It was supposed to be a model community powered by clean hydro energy. 

When the project collapsed in 1910, leaving an empty canal—perfect for cheap waste storage.

Turns out Sage was only related to The town of Love Canal by marriage. His family strictly supported a sustainable energy vision now. I watched the factories blur by, and thinking about the love stories and landfills that fill entangle our timeline.

His estate was pristine though.

Up a hill and a mile off the road ,his home lived up to the name The Garden Collective. The lobby to the atrium glittered with sequins and legacy wealth—every step popped with a color of positive affirmation.

And there he was.

Gold-chain dripping, Like the son of Midas, waiting at the edge of  Eden. He smiled and waved for me to meet him at the top of the stairs.

“So glad you could make it,” He grabbed my hand and led me to a near-by bedroom.

“Look mister, we did NOT agree on that,” I stake that claim early.

At first he looked positively perplexed, then he offered a wry chuckle, “I got you some options for dinner.” 

He swung open the door to reveal a rack of clothes, various glitter dressed in shades of green. 

“I had some last minute funders show up, so the theme changed” 

I cocked an eye-brow. 

“Your outfit is magnificent of course,” his eyes-traced my body up-and-down, “we are just switching to green.” 

Being I chose black, I obliged to his offer to play Barbie.

“Meet me in the garden, when you’re done”

The dresses were exceptional, what I thought was a sequence was actually the finest pattens of beading woven into the dress. The designs seemed to blend and blur, but if I could finger on it, it seemed familiar. 

I chose a low-cut, high-cut barely there feather dress that would have made Josephine Baker jealous . The garden held a greenhouse that had a table set for an intimate affair. From the outside the greenhouse showed several people conversing informally. Yet, when I stepped in it was if, no one could see the outside after stepping in.

The walls were darkened and covered with fluorescent flowers.

The flowers made the air feel heavy which could best described as the fragrance of no smell at all. My finger couldn’t help to reach out to see what the flower was. Before I got too close, the heat of the petal frizzled near my skin. 

“You like that” Sage walked up behind me.

His breath carried that synthetic sweetness that made my neck hairs frizzle like the petals.

The flowers are embedded in black mirror panels to capture maximum energy while filtering out every trace of scent,” he explained, still grinning. “We get full use—as long as we pay the gardeners.”

Then I realized he wasn’t talking to me anymore; he was talking to the room.

The Phoenix Flower—his miracle—could be grown, harvested, and monetized. A bit of lipstick on the good ol’ DNA. He sold it like salvation in a bottle: purity with quarterly returns.

The mirrored walls lifted, petals glinting into a full-force pitch deck. Applause followed—sharp, metallic, palms hitting palms like rainfall on sheet metal. Sage smiled, all teeth and stock options.

Change takes courage, he said. I nodded, unsure which kind of courage this change needed.

The night switched to after-hours, all glitter; no glow.

Then Sage appeared—tailored, timed, and too precise, like he’d practiced the moment in a mirror that clapped back. He moved through the crowd the way water finds a drain: smooth, silent, inevitable.

His smile was calculated to the millimeter—warm enough for photos, cool enough for control. When a guest brushed his arm, he adjusted his cufflink before locking eyes with me.

“I knew you’d fit my purpose just right,” he said.

“Purpose or prop?” I asked.

He didn’t flinch; just glanced at his reflection in the champagne tower. “Same difference, when it works.”

I laughed. He didn’t.

Beneath the chandeliers, his gold looked earned. Up close, it looked like armor.

When the room relaxed, Sage reached for my hand and brought my to a funder.

He began, “This is my date…” .

I moved, “Nyra Nox” taking the man’s hand, steady as smoke. “Nice to meet you.”

“Exotic name. Good job, my boy.” The man clapped Sage on the shoulder.

While they talked about metrics, I slipped away; token trophy mission complete.

The fragrance followed me to the corridor, sweet yet, stale.

“Hey, wait!” His voice sliced through the hum of generators.

I didn’t.

To be continued 

Diving into a December Detox

I’ve been reading a book called Results by Jamie Smart. At first I thought it was going to help me find some management techniques to ensure that when I work with small businesses or large enterprises, the goals they set bring provable results.

Woops! Judged a book by a cover, but it seems the universe had bigger plans for me in mind. The book Results was actually about how our minds, our very thoughts, can get in our own way of finding the true innate results we can deliver as humans. *Mind blown* It seems simple, but this concept really attempts to get the reader to accept that clarity to a human is as real and pervasive as gravity is on this earth. We did not invent gravity, it just is, and we discovered and name it. We do not create our own clarity, the clarity is there, and sometimes our thoughts can keep us from tapping into it.

As someone who loveeeesssss to think, I still struggle to embrace this concept, but I would like to get closer to stepping into clarity. As a challenge for myself, and this blog, I am going to be embarking on a detox in December. As a way to clear some of the “contaminated” or even “cluttered” areas of my life. I’ve put together some areas to detox and hope that writing will help me commit to this journey over the next 21-days.

So here is a list of 21-day detox ideas that I will be building together.

  • 21 Clean Eating Detox by Fit BodyRock (Food)
  • 21 Day Yoga Challenge by Yoga with Uliana (Fitness)
  • 21 Mind Makeover Challenge by Gravity Life Coaching (Mind)
  • 21 Day Digital Detox Checklist by But First Joy.Com (Tech)

While there are a dozen of ways to detox, I hope these areas hit on the global areas of the self! Here are the details on some.

21-Day Clean Eating Detox by Fit Body Rock

Source: https://www.bodyrock.tv/
From: https://www.bodyrock.tv/ Found on Pinterest

I am choosing level 2, since I am fairly close to level 1 on this. Giving up dairy products will be hard especially during egg nog season!!

Source: https://www.yogawithuliana.com/

I love yoga and it’s been months since I’ve done it in a dedicated way. By releasing the stress and tension from my body, I can definitely open up space for clarity!

21-Day Mind Makeover Challenge by Gravity Life Coaching

Honest, I found most of these challenges on Pinterest 🙂 This one seems to lead to https://www.erinsonlinecoachingcamp.com/

Finally the 21-Day Digital Detox challenge! It’s easy to say that social media can be distracting, especially when you’ve worked in marketing or adjacent to marketing for years! Now that some of my responsibilities are coming to an end I feel comfortable deleting some social media apps, even if its just for a week! I just love this one from But First, Joy.com

From:https://butfirstjoy.com/

So that lays it out! From December 1st to December 21st, I’ll be retreating into myself and practicing these challenges!

Have you ever done a detox? What would you recommend?

Here’s a sneak peek of Week 1, which is underway!

One More Move: Carry Over the Good

2020 has come to a close.

Did anyone else find themselves on what seemed like a journey that equates to one of the great Epic novels? At times, my energy was completely focused on just making it through the day.

I am sure our shared experience will be one for the history books.

Now as 2021 approaches, we’ve settled into the chaos. This is one of our most precious abilities as humans, our capability to adapt. With this re-alignment, one key value and attitude that will carry over into the new year will be: Gratitude.

This year felt filled with unmet desires. Yet, gratitude is the gift that allows us to have absolutely enough in our lives. When we focus on understanding how we are being fulfilled anything else becomes decorative and not essential. The abundant substance of life, is here all around us, and much of it is fulfilled, for free, in the nakedness of the present time.

So with this, I share my gratitude with and for you.

What good will you carry over into the next year?

See you in 2021 🙂

One More Move: Let Out Your Excuses

2018 was a year of introspection for me.

A new career, personal commitments, and community projects made me step back and assess what I was doing. I took time away from writing and  I focused on the internal and external challenges that I had to recognize and explore at the roots. I learned my main priority needed to shift towards projecting my truth into the world. Yet, I know my most truthful voice comes through my writing. Sure, for 2019, I set goals to communicate with my teams more and to make more videos, but deep down I could never escape my calling to write.

What is a part of your calling you could never escape?

Not sure what your calling is?

With time and observation you will hear your calling  within you or see it in the actions that you take. Yet, some of us do hear our calling and then we find ourselves avoiding, ignoring, or neglecting it. We fill our days with excuses to do other things besides what the universe gently asks of us.

So the One More Move challenge is to: Let Out Your Excuses.

 

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Notice I didn’t say Let Go (that’s another move), but to let them out. My mentor suggested I read The Goddess Warrior Training by HeatherAsh Amara. She discusses the importance of knowing the stories we lean on everyday to explain why we are the way we are. Knowing what those stories are is the first step to take before attempting to transform them. Listen to yourself throughout the week and observe where you stop yourself from taking action or where you make up an excuse for not moving forward on something . Hear those stories and write them down.

At the end of the week, look at those stories and ask do those stories still serve my growth? 

Your stories (including your excuses) are powerful tools to influence how you act in the moment. When you begin to identify how you use your stories on regular basis, you can begin to build the awareness that allows you to leverage them to build your progress towards success.

So want to hear more about 2018? Check out Cultivated Sisters group built for real women who aim to pursue their passion in an authentic way.

 

30 Things to Accomplish Before 30

This will be a fun list for me.

So, thirty is eyeing me hard.

As it approaches, I mostly think…age doesn’t matter as much as it did when I was 16, but the magnitude of adulthood grows heavier by the day. Friends I grew up with are now a part of raising our future. College buddies are becoming local leaders. Every day,  I sense that now, more than ever, my involvement is needed in something bigger than myself.

That being said…
adulting is hard.

The pressures of leadership, the threads of consequential outcomes, and navigating the endless politics of people, and while just maintaining the basics of life could have oneself feeling stretched.  Our entrenched responsibilities pulling our energy and focus away from our long-term vision of success. Making it so easy to lose focus on our most honest desires.

When I start to lose focus…I make a list.

This list will be a mix of fun things and things I should have mastered by the time I reach 30.

Think something’s missing? Let me know in the comments.

So for me, these are the 30 things I want to accomplish or master before I turn 30.

1. Accomplish: Taking a girl’s trip
2. Visiting a friend in a foreign city
3. Go to Trinidad
4. Read fiction books again (3 before 30)
5. Finish 2nd draft of the novel I started
6. Have a good parenting routine
7. Have a consistent quality beauty regimen
8. Improve my morning and evening routine
9. Memorize an at-home exercise routine
10. Memorize a yoga set
11. Drink mainly water
12. Pay off 1/2 my personal debt
13. Follow a house maintenance and development plan
14. Boost Emergency Fund
15. Have a quality capsule wardrobe
16. Work with self-critic and turn it into positive
17. Visualize my big goals every day
18. Meet more people
19. Maintain a quality circle of friends
20. Look into the family tree
21. Visit family I haven’t seen in years
22. Buy another investment property
23. Be a better baker
24. Be a better-informed voter
25. Write the first draft of my story
26. Face my fear of a video camera
27. Take a parent to dinner (or both)
28. Do something random
29. Take a self-care weekend
30. Complete this list 🙂

Reset

Writing is a calling, not a choice.

-Isabelle Allende

I’ve written less since spring season.

New job, new challenges, and a big focus on the day-to-day of my passions pulled me into my introverted nature to sit back and take in my new surroundings.

So I made a decision, to give myself space from writing, while I adjusted to these rapid, yet pivotal, life changes.

After a while, though, the yearning returned. My true passion, writing to draw out your success. To make you, us, the world feel the inspiration and magnitude of pleasure from doing our greatest good.

These words do not come out, they escape, as if they were always there, a kyuubi, waiting for me to tap into its infinite power.  No matter how far I push it away from my deepest desire to write it pummels back to me.

What is a calling that you can not ignore?

Finding your calling may not always be easy, but following your calling is twice as hard, but you HAVE to do it for it to be realized in your life. So what do you do as an alternative to putting-it-off forever?

Take a break.

Find time to walk away in a calm, controlled, and consenting manner.

You may think …now Zinga…how could you suggest putting-it-off as a remedy to putting-it-off?

At first the idea does seem like a contradictory, but taking a break, involves some key factors to keep it from falling on the dark side of the procrastination line.

Here are some quick factors to taking a break:

Have a reset time. The main difference between taking a break and procrastinating forever is that you get back to doing what you were doing. Maybe you use an exact date and time, maybe you use an event in your life, or maybe you have a season in mind. Just know, visualize, and even write down when you will return to your original activity. Please note, the length of your timeline should be set realistically to how important it is that you get back to what you’re doing. For instance, if it’s your goal to get an A on a test in two weeks, but you need to take a break, then a two week break wouldn’t make sense.

Choose honor over guilt. Find the admirable reasons for making your choice instead of reasons that make you feel guilty. If you are in a state of rest then respect your wish to let your body restore itself. If you need to reshift your priorities for pressing matters, then appreciate your ability to adapt to new situations and see things through. Whatever narrative you build,  it should be one that is from a positive perspective.

Use what you learned. During your break, try to find one-to-two learning nuggets you can implement once you reset. Maybe it’s a shift in your schedule or reaching out to form new partnerships. This sets up two bonuses to your break:

1) You can be assured your break fits into your larger master plan

2) Your break serves an immediate purpose of helping to improve your your path to success.

So…this is how am I making an honest reset with writing for this page. I allowed myself to adjust to the pace my new situation before getting back to get back to writing. I committed to a goal to write again before the year was over. During my break, I learned that given the new responsibilities to be consistent, I will give myself time to ease into it, starting with twice a week! 

Are you ready to hit the reset button on something in your life, what is it?

Til the next time,

Zinga

Looking to the future and other writings.

Last week, I wrote about small moves you can take to plan for 2017. I hope you get to read it. This week, I’m just put some free-thought in response to what I wrote.

Why?

Well, I took this week to publish on the Pulse. I do that sometimes for my small business owners and community leaders. [Find my other writings from 2016 there 🙂 ]

So here we go:

Building off of 2016

2016 was a tough year.

Firstly, America’s existential crisis, was definitely a point of concern. I do hope we can find unity again.

Personally, this year I stepped up my presentation as a leader. As an INTP, I am super comfortable hiding behind my work. Look at the good work I do and let’s move forward to do more. As an employee or an assistant that makes me ideal, but as a leader of a budding non-profit, it is completely ineffective.

A leader listens to their community and responds in-kind. While I was always strong at the listening part, this year I really boosted the response part. They asked for more presence I created a monthly newsletter; more engagement – we added meeting activities and in-between events; more communication – we revamped our meetings, developed workshops, and gave even more details reports! All of this I would have never found the energy to do, if it wasn’t for their need.

A leader listens to their community and responds in-kind.

Yet, learning the balance between being present as a leader and finding energy as an introvert, was no simple feat. I learned to say no to wasteful-time sinks, yet so no to work during my agreed-upon free time. I listened to my body and gave it rest when required, and I never over-loaded my day, making sure to be aware of my meeting availability over the course of a month.

In 2017, I hope to be more present in the world of higher education. While, I love writing to help us all find our personal success, and running local and online economic empowerment initiatives, my true passion is higher education. Shifting how we draw out the success of adults from a systemic level will truly help achieve my vision of showing the world the trillion-dollar value of education. I hope to find time to meet with people during my professional career at the university, and eventually present myself on a person that likes to build communities that form a culture around the love of  self-development.

That long conversation…

When I meditated on my self and my higher purpose, I found that I finally feel as if I shifted into the groove of being passionate about what I produce. Now it’s a matter of producing consistently and intelligently.

So, I want to be even more efficient with my time in 2017 and to find ways more meaningful ways to connect with the people I care about more often.

Strive for More…

My greatest dream for 2017 is to grow Limitless Ambition’s (the non-profit) and Empower NOW’s (the network) community and to find better ways to serve their success.

On the blog, I hope to hone in and help you take meaningful moves to build your authentic success.

My fantasy is to head to an international beach for a week, something blue and sandy.

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A week will do.

Honing in…

To review, serving others is going to be a key focus for 2017. I will shift from putting the work first to putting the heart first and instilling it into my intents and actions. Should be an interesting shift for a get-it-done girl like me.

Action Steps 

  • Call at least one friend and one family member per week.
  • Provide high-quality help to least two small businesses a quarter.
  • Give away highly valuable resources that I know others would find help on a weekly or monthly basis.
  • Offer one highly-useful workshop, webinar, or tool per month to help people grow the authentic [small business/nonprofit] success.
  • Set a budget for a beach trip and save 🙂
  • Have lunch with one new or familiar colleague at least twice a month.

So there’s the quick personal plan for 2017. What are some action steps you want to take during the next year? Comment below!

Remember these Three Positive Maxims to Keep You Moving Forward

I’ve always liked maxims.

max·im
ˈmaksəm/
noun
plural noun: maxims
1. a short, pithy statement expressing a general truth or rule of conduct. (Google Search)
When you find yourself having to make sound decisions followed by quick action, you notice you start to build a mental shorthand that helps turn the bets in your favor.
What are some maxims you like?
1. Just do it.  – Attributed to Nike.
My number one. Like seriously, ask my sister and my tattoo artist.
Such a simple reminder. If you find yourself wanting to do something, something important, and something that fits into your final vision, then do it. You can plan, think, talk, dream, and research all your life OR you can take those efforts and put it into getting the work done. Both paths take your energy, but only one truly fulfills you. You gain your substance when your energy expended, so put in that work.
2. Begin with the end in mind. – Steven Covey
You might be thinking, “Zinga…you just said NOT to plan…”  and I’d say…whoa there. Planning is critical to your success. How do end anywhere you want to go? The first step is knowing where you want to go.
So when you find yourself facing a decision that might stop you from moving forward, take a moment and reflect on the greater vision you are working towards.  For instance, as the president of Limitless Ambition, I actively think about our vision of building a positive network of women. When I find myself faced with a difficult decision I have to make on behalf of the organization, I consider, “Will this contribute to building a positive network of women?”
Consider what’s hindering your next success step forward, what’s your solution for overcoming the obstacle? Does the solution align with your final success vision?
3. Every drop fills the bucket
 This is a good thought for when you’re feeling overwhelmed with the gravity of the project. Sometimes, when you are ready to contribute to your promised time to move forward on your goal, you might need to break down your tasks into even simpler steps.

zinga hart a quote the river swells from the little streams

Another way to say it.

It’s okay. As long as you do it (see #1) you are gaining ground. Figure out ways to break your goal down into the simplest steps as possible for the day ahead of you. Celebrate when you accomplish it because you are coloring in your vision of success.
What’s a saying you keep close?